Tuesday, 1 March 2011
Daily Draw Gratitudes Dreamer Five
In the Dreamer Five card, equivalent to the Five of Swords, we see a female figure standing on a small outcropping of grass, high among the clouds. Around her are four similar grass-topped pillars, while in the background we see a range of mountains, tinted red by a blood-red sun. The female figure is throwing away a sword, with which she seems to have cut her connections to the universe - ribbons sprouting from her back that are now chopped short and drip blood, while she holds the remains in her other hand.
The card is subtitled Hope Discarded. The woman has chopped off her own ability to connect with what is outside of herself, and is now dropping the blade with which she did this. I see these ribbon-like connectors being the hope that she is discarding - she no longer trusts that she will be supported by the universe, that she is a part of creation. That feels like a very bleak place to be and reminds me of descriptions of depression, where people feel both isolated and hopeless. In depression, too, there is often a sense that the person is to a degree creating their own (negative) reality, not allowing others close, and without the energy to move themselves out of the darkness.
My affirmations based on this:
I am grateful for the lessons I've learned about self-sabotage.
I am thankful not to be in a dark place of sad isolation.