Oracle of the Shapeshifters (Blue Angel 2011), I pulled this card which links with Alice in Wonderland. I like the fact that this deck mixes things up - including references to religious texts from around the world as well as from novels and culture more generally.
What a depressing image we have here, though. Alice treading water in a sea of the tears she cried when she was big which, now she has shrunk, she risks drowning in. This makes me think about how problems, which in a normal mood we might overcome with ease, can seem enormous when we are sad or stressed.
I am intrigued by the creatures swimming alongside Alice. The mouse suggests something about the benefits of being inconspicuous, while the crab speaks to me of protecting myself by being a bit thicker-skinned. These associations play nicely against the phrase on the card: instead of feeling abandoned we can look for the positive in flying under the radar; instead of feeling out of our depth, we can work on creating a safe space for ourselves.
I have been avoiding approaching an essay, which I half wrote a couple of months ago and now really need to get on and finish. Part of my hesitancy is because it is a self-reflective piece, which feels quite exposing. It is also in an area where I don't feel I have all the answers, or even many of them. However, maybe I just need to stick to what I do know, and write it in a way that still feels safe. This card feels like a kick up the butt to just get on with it and stop feeling sorry for myself...
I am grateful for my mother, who is often a rock in a sea of emotion.