Monday, 19 September 2011

Beauty and the Beast

Another novel reference greets me today, in this card from the Oracle of the Shapeshifters (Blue Angel 2011).

The story of Beauty and the Beast has been given many an interpretation.  Here, the suggestion is one of an unhealthy relationship, or simply one where we need to re-find ourselves.  I find this an interesting twist - normally this tale is highlighted as being about seeing beyond the surface of another person.  Still, it's true that the Beast was rather controlling...

For me, this card signals Big Boy going back to nursery after the weekend - it's nice to have some more time for me, and especially to sleep.  He had a bit of a bad weekend, up at 4am on Saturday and 3.45am on Sunday, a bit snotty and pukey.  Today we got a lie-in, by comparison: up at 4.25 *woo hoo*.  Let someone else deal with him for a few hours, and I'll love him better when he gets home.

I am grateful for the English national education system, and for the fact that BB enjoys going to school.


  1. I'm so sorry. I wish I could take away your stress and cares and bad sleep!

    In an interesting coincidence, Pele was watching Beauty and the Beast yesterday. This was during one of her moody episodes where she cried at everything and I couldn't get her to calm down for a while. Then she came out and I fed her and put on this movie.

    Sorry--I just thought I'd mention that.

    I am also glad BB likes school and you have that time away. We all need space in relationships! Even if they are non-stressful ones, but especially if it involves extra stress and caretaking.


  2. Hi MM,

    How did Pele like the movie? I'm thinking of trying BB with some more musicals - he loves music, but not always so sure about films...

    Yes, I am so grateful that BB likes school, and that there is a really good one for him close by. I felt almost a sense of dread when I read you saying you'd probably be home-schooling Pele. I can see why it'd make sense, but it will be a lot of work and stress for you. And hard, too, to hold those different roles - mother, teacher.

    Huge hugs,

  3. Hi Chloë,

    Pele loves movies, yeah. She's picky about music. Funny, isn't it? She has a lot of sensory issues. She gets overwhelmed easily and gets overstimulated/angry if something upsets her. That's why I know that, at least for now, I am probably going to have to do any lessons at home with her. With her complicated special diet, medications, supplements and her sensory issues (and attention problems) I can't imagine her in a school. I can't get her to focus more than half an hour much less several!

    So I think this will be a gradual thing. You detected that correctly. There is a sense of dread there--it's not going to be easy and also I would've liked to have some time to myself but for now I can't see a better alternative. Maybe something will come up--at least a few hours a week. I have no idea! But right now it's still hard.

    Even dropping her off at my mom's house for an hour proved challenging today. She cried and acted out but then calmed down (thank goodness). Her mood, behavior and attention side effects are almost worse than anything else. I think it's what wears us out the fastest. It's hard to explain. It's like having to tiptoe around an angry tiger or something.

    That having been said, I am very grateful that her cognitive abilities have increased lately--better memory, better overall understanding of things--some pre-reading ability (which is great!) but she still has a ways to go and again the behavior and sensory issues are a big block.

    One step at a time, I guess!

    Anyway--lotsa hugs to you,

  4. Aah, lots of hugs to you, too! I really hear what you're saying about the energy drain of constantly tiptoeing around Pele, worrying about what might set her off. Still, your recent reading on reducing medications does seem to suggest that getting her to interact with other kids is going to become more relevant.

    Best of luck with it all, and more hugs,

  5. Thank you, Chloë...

    Please forgive all my rambling.

    This is a great deck you're working with!