Journey Oracle offers us another beautiful card today, with an air of sadness to it. Though it's still far more cheerful than yesterday's card!
The Fragile Thread shows a woman holding a heart on a string, the heart pierced by a small hole in one side. The woman's clothes are seductive, softly flowing, a combination of blue and green, with a red ribbon. Stars seem to spring from her cheek, floating away in the air like a trail that would lead someone to her. All in all, it feels to me like she is someone who is offering herself, seductive and enchanting.
This card reminds me of the risks we run when we offer ourselves to others. The risk of being hurt, taken for granted, or rejected. And a heart really isn't a toy to be given away to win another's approval. It reminds me of a Dory Previn song my mum used to listen to when I was little called "I Dance and Dance and Smile and Smile". OK, the title isn't exactly catchy, but it still resonates with me - a song about loving too much, trying too hard to please.
That's what I see in this card today, someone who doesn't see what a wonderful child of the stars they are. And so she offers her heart on a fragile thread, trying to win something that she already deserves, if she could only trust in her loveableness.
Today, this card makes me wonder who I might be trying to please by completing my essay, finishing my Masters, working as a counsellor... Big Boy has been ill again for the past couple of days, and I'm exhausted, yet I also feel this push: I must do it! And suddenly Alanis Morissette's "Perfect" echoes in my ears.
I notice that both the songs that came to me were about parents, and I guess that's often the root of these feelings. Not that I'm blaming my parents, far from it. My mum has always been very supportive of everything I do. And yet, I still remember any small instance when I didn't feel supported by her. So, how much is that to do with me, rather than her?
I am grateful for times when I can love myself and respect my own needs.