Card 1 - what is in deficit in my life?
Card 2 - what is in excess?
Card 3 - which Court card can balance this out?
I decided to use the charming Stella's Tarot (AGM Müller, 2008) for this, and here's the result:
|Yeah, I know, I put the cards the wrong way round in the scanner *doh*|
Card 1 - Deficit - Nine of Swords
Well, I'm certainly lacking in the sleep department! Not only has Big Boy been ill, leading to restless nights, but I've also been a bit insomniac, worrying about the future and thinking about my dissertation. Perhaps, then, also a deficit in seeing clearly how realistic my worries and fears are or are not?
Card 2 - Excess - Nine of Wands
Hmm, this one's a bit trickier. An excess of defensiveness? Or, going more by the image, have I been digging myself into a hole, not letting the world in, yet also maintaining unrealistic hopes and dreams? That sounds closer to the truth...
Card 3 - Balancer - Knight (King) of Cups
So, what I need to do is get in touch with my emotions in a controlled way, not allowing them to swamp me, but also not pushing them away. This reminds me of my post last week. I need to get in touch with the more positive side of the King of Cups, his joy and wonder in life. I need to re-find that faith in the Universe.
In some ways, the fact of having two Nines gives me some hope - this cycle is almost at an end. I certainly hope so!