|Halloween Tarot ©Kipling West|
When our wrangler, Amethyst Mahoney, proposed a hop to do with exploring our shadow, I thought it sounded pretty good. Not that I like my shadow, by definition it's made up of the bits I don't like, that scare me, or that I'm ashamed of. Still, I've been in therapy for 9 years and I work as a counsellor myself, so I know this stuff is important. What to write about, though, and how personal to get?
Then, as we got closer to the date something else happened: my life has been super exciting and super busy because of the Celtic Lenormand project. I've been feeling so energised and enthused, my therapist even commented on it. And then he asked me to turn around 180 degrees and look at what was behind all that. Not that I had to go into it, but at least be aware of it.
I took a good hard look, and decided that was more than I wanted to share here. So, what to do instead? Well, the Lenormand has been my solace of late, why not go with that? One of the big differences people mention between the Lenormand and tarot is that Lenormand readings are less psychological, more "just the facts". Still, wanting to stay on topic, I thought: "How about using a Lenormand reading to look at the symptoms of shadow issues, rather than the issues themselves - how the shadow is playing out within my life, rather than my psyche?"
Right from the get-go, this reading hits the spot. With the Child at the centre, I am forced back to the things I don't want to talk about. While the Lenormand may stick to facts, those facts affect our psyches.
The Child at the heart of the reading is true in four different ways. Just with that one card this reading hits on so much. And thinking about it, I realise that is probably half the problem: there are too many fragile things in need of nurture in my life. Anyhow, in interpreting the rest of the cards I'll stick with just one of those four "Child" elements in my life.
I've been doing a lot of research for the Celtic Lenormand (Tower), but still face any number of obstacles to get it done (Mountain). After all, at the moment it is mainly just a bunch of briefs on Will Worthington's computer, with about 6 cards sketched in black and white, and one now being completed in colour. So, the cards still need to be painted, the book still needs to be written, I still need to look into printing options, publishing options, marketing... the list goes on.
No wonder I am nervous and eating to push away the fear! So much to be done, a lot of it things I've never done before: I'm way out of my comfort zone. All the worrying about it (Clouds) is impacting on my sense of well-being and health (Tree), so that I fall back on old patterns from the past (Anchor). Of course, it is mainly in my own head - it is pressure I put on myself, rather than coming from anyone external - hence Woman at the start of the first line followed closely by Clouds.
The Scythe, though, gives me hope that it is within my power to make a break with these negative patterns, and find something which is more growthful for me. I read the last column as saying that taking a positive and rational/organised approach (Sun) despite the obstacles (Mountain), will help me make cut these bad patterns out (Scythe).
Although this reading could have gone several different ways, I think that even just sticking to this one interpretation was helpful. I hope that I will bring the light of my conscious mind to bear, overcoming these fears and making a break with this shadow symptom.
Thanks for stopping by! Now, I hope you'll hop along to TABI's blog and see what else there is to read on this Halloween Blog Hop.