Tarot of the Wyrd (The Game Crafter, 2012).
This deck, created by a fellow Brit, describes itself as a mix of Victorian Gothic and magic. It certainly has a rather Steampunk feel to it, which I love :) For today's card, we have the Nine of Cups. Here, an old gentleman with glasses sits in a formal parlour, with a large teapot beside him and nine teacups stacked a little precariously in front of him.
At first glance, I was suprised by the keyword given here: "security". The cups don't look all that secure, and security isn't something I normally associate with the Nine of Cups, so often described as the wish card. Still, if it's emotional security we're talking, I guess I can get behind that.
It seems like this old gentleman has had a variety of emotional experiences, which allow him now to sit back and feel happy, content, at peace. Sounds like a good place to be!
I hope that I feel some of that by the end of today. I found yesterday on the course quite hard, often I wanted to cry. Not so much because of my past history with poor eating, but more due to issues with Big Boy and how they affect me, too. We talked about the physiological effects of long-term stress, and nutritional ways to support people in those circumstances. One of the biggest things was to try to remove the stress. Amongst people with eating disorders, often the disorder itself creates stress, both emotional and physical. However, in my case the only things that may help are things to change my attitude to the stressful circumstances (for instance, meditation), and support with managing the symptoms (better nutrition aimed at supporting the adrenal system), as Big Boy's condition is never going to change :( Still, I did also learn about some supplements that may help support his health...
I am grateful for the emotional support of my friends and family.