Jolanda Tarot (AGMüller, 2008)!
In the centre is a tall, brick Tower, with flames coming out of the window about halfway up, and a huge snake wrapped all around it. The snake's head is actually a hindu deity, perhaps Kali, with a single-eyed snake's ruff behind a woman's head. The female figure has four sets of arms, and her naked breasts seem almost to rest on the lower edge of the card border. To the left of the Tower is a dark storm cloud with lightning bolts boiling out of it, and a spider with a cross on it's back dangling over a floor of heads. To the right is a black sun, and a crow with a worm or small snake in its beak.
Kali is a great deity to associate with the Tower, given her moniker: the Destroyer! Yet, what she is also called is the Goddess of Change. Destruction does bring change, and though we often resist it, different does not necessarily mean worse, though it may feel that way while we process the shock.
Big Boy is still not better, despite having been assessed by five different doctors in the last three weeks, and despite having taken steroids, nasal spray, analgesics and antibiotics. So, today we'll traipse to the GP again, in the hope that they will have something else to offer us... While I wish for change, I also fear it. In the grand scheme of things, change is neither good nor bad, yet it can certainly feel that way. On the other hand, maybe the worst thing right now would be no change, remaining in this feeling of stuckness and despair :(
I am grateful for divination, which acts as a support and a distraction.