Animism Tarot (GameCrafter, 2013), my stalker card, the Tower, rears its ugly head.
black-armoured scorpion with a slightly reddish stinger arches its tail
towards us from the twisted branch of a tree. In the background,
lightning rips through the sky, dark grey clouds boiling around the red
glow it leaves in its wake.
This is a quite menacing version of
the Tower, from the colours used to the primeval fear that a scorpion
triggers. Which makes me wonder how much our fears and paralysis may
play into Tower moments, making them worse than they need to be. If we
brushed aside the stinger, or had a scorpion poison antidote to hand in
preparation, then it would be a pain and a minor inconvenience, rather
than something terrifying.
funny, one thing in my day that feels slightly Tower-esque also happens
to be a way of trying to preempt a Tower moment. My Dear One and I are
going house hunting. On the one hand, moving house is a huge upheaval,
and we love where we live. We both feel happier there than we have
anywhere else in our entire lives, so even thinking of leaving feels
painful and shocking. And yet, realistically, we need to move. Our
home doesn't suit Big Boy's needs, and the older he gets the more
apparent that becomes. So, rather than waiting for it to become a
serious issue, we're looking to move ahead of time.
I am grateful for the foresight to act before I'm forced to do so.